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[strokeof_genie]

WHAT?

Well, that settles it.

Actually, probably not.

edit: Ok, I don't mean to be a bitch, but seriously. I just keep going back to here, about every ten minutes or so, and keep hitting refresh. Because LOLZ this is funny. And kind of sad. But since it's Christmas Eve, I'll forget about the sad part.

That said, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, and MERRY CHRISTMAS for tomorrow! Even though I know I'll be on to wish everyone a Merry Christmas.

*loves all around*

edit again: IT'S GONE ;_; Oh well. I saved the thingie just in case. The format might be screwy, since I did the View Source-thing.

I read mskatej wanky post and it got me thinking. She IS right in some points and, I think, wrong in others. But I think my FRIENDS deserve the truth so, here it goes.

It scares me to no end to say this, because I fear I might lose you all, the way I lost miche_connor and herohunter, which just think about makes me want to cry until I dry.

I also don't want to lose Tasha, Shannon, Clare, Becky, Maggie, Keikokin, Jenny and so many others I really care about.

My real name IS Maria Jose Bianchi and I AM a compulsive liar and a bipolar. I had been for my whole life and only recently I started my treatment.

I was alessandra84 and I made up a life, a good one, for myself as svmaria. I won't rant and cry about my real life, and I won't give any more details than this:

When things starting going out of control, when svmadelyn posted about ME don't being real, I tried to kill myself. I was in hospital two days for an overdose of sleeping pills and aspirins. My psichiatrist sign some papers so I could come home and I tried to fix the mess I had created with more lies until I got another crisis and had to be sedated (after I realized I had lost Ash and Miche).

Then, I stayed away for a few days and mskatej post helped me see that you all deserve the truth.

I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME, BUT IF YOU CAN'T, I WILL UNDERSTAND.

I AM SPECIALLY SORRY THAT MY LIES HURT ASH SO MUCH AND I PROMISE I WILL DISSAPEAR FROM LJ WORLD FROM NOW ON.

I'M BACK TO LURK, because I love Clex too much.

Hope you can forgive me and it was great to meet you all. I am really sorry.

Maria

(my mail is: cotebianchi at hotmail.com, in case you want to contact me, which I doubt)

Now, I have no way to prove that this is not another one of my lies and that hurts me, but this is the truth. I am deeply sorry I hurt you all.

Comments

[allzugern.livejournal.com]

Thanks for getting that! I had her friended because I knew she would be back, then she friended me Friday, so I knew something was coming. I kept checing for 'the big post', but missed it due to Christmas celebrations. When I got on this morning the journal was deleted again. What's the point of making an apology if you delete the journal and NO ONE CAN READ IT?? *boggles a little more*

any way, Happy holidays to you :-)

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I had her friended cos I was too lazy to take her off my flist. I was lucky that I caught it before I had to finish cleaning; I kept refreshing cos I wanted to see people yell at her, and then I saved it cos I knew it would be gone, eventually. I could never figure out how to take screencaps, or I'd have done that. I never understood the point of posting something you want read on the busiest day of the year, and delete it about thirty minutes later.

Happy Holidays!