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[strokeof_genie]

WHAT?

Well, that settles it.

Actually, probably not.

edit: Ok, I don't mean to be a bitch, but seriously. I just keep going back to here, about every ten minutes or so, and keep hitting refresh. Because LOLZ this is funny. And kind of sad. But since it's Christmas Eve, I'll forget about the sad part.

That said, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE, and MERRY CHRISTMAS for tomorrow! Even though I know I'll be on to wish everyone a Merry Christmas.

*loves all around*

edit again: IT'S GONE ;_; Oh well. I saved the thingie just in case. The format might be screwy, since I did the View Source-thing.

I read mskatej wanky post and it got me thinking. She IS right in some points and, I think, wrong in others. But I think my FRIENDS deserve the truth so, here it goes.

It scares me to no end to say this, because I fear I might lose you all, the way I lost miche_connor and herohunter, which just think about makes me want to cry until I dry.

I also don't want to lose Tasha, Shannon, Clare, Becky, Maggie, Keikokin, Jenny and so many others I really care about.

My real name IS Maria Jose Bianchi and I AM a compulsive liar and a bipolar. I had been for my whole life and only recently I started my treatment.

I was alessandra84 and I made up a life, a good one, for myself as svmaria. I won't rant and cry about my real life, and I won't give any more details than this:

When things starting going out of control, when svmadelyn posted about ME don't being real, I tried to kill myself. I was in hospital two days for an overdose of sleeping pills and aspirins. My psichiatrist sign some papers so I could come home and I tried to fix the mess I had created with more lies until I got another crisis and had to be sedated (after I realized I had lost Ash and Miche).

Then, I stayed away for a few days and mskatej post helped me see that you all deserve the truth.

I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME, BUT IF YOU CAN'T, I WILL UNDERSTAND.

I AM SPECIALLY SORRY THAT MY LIES HURT ASH SO MUCH AND I PROMISE I WILL DISSAPEAR FROM LJ WORLD FROM NOW ON.

I'M BACK TO LURK, because I love Clex too much.

Hope you can forgive me and it was great to meet you all. I am really sorry.

Maria

(my mail is: cotebianchi at hotmail.com, in case you want to contact me, which I doubt)

Now, I have no way to prove that this is not another one of my lies and that hurts me, but this is the truth. I am deeply sorry I hurt you all.

Comments

[pixxers.livejournal.com]

Hee. That made me giggle.

Christmas wank! ♥

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

It was good. She deleted it.

[txvoodoo.livejournal.com]

*weeps* and I missed it!

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I have that post put up, and that was about it. From what I could tell, only one person replied, and that was to yell at her on her blaming her lies and insanity on being bipolar. *shrug*

[zombeezle.livejournal.com]

Haha I read it, have no idea who she is and wa still LOLLYCoasting

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

She was...kind of a big name in the Smallville fandom. I wasn't a personal friend of hers - actually, she hosted a Friending Frenzy type of thing, during which she friended me. Then she...um. *waves above* That happened. Which is anther thing that amuses me. She tried to go out with a bang, I guess.

I want to be a drama queen, too. Help me, Nicky. Make me a good one.

[zombeezle.livejournal.com]

you see, what we need to do is you need to create such an eventful life for yourself that people are amazed. AND then, right at the peak of amazingness, off yourself drama queen style.

[txvoodoo.livejournal.com]

She reminds me of Congressman Foley and the gay meth-snorting preacher: IT'S NOT MY FAULT! I'M AN ADDICT/AN ALCOHOLIC/WAS ABUSED!

Next we'll hear she went into rehab ;)

The age of personal responsibility is SO over

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

Ok. So. Tomorrow - Christmas dinner? That will be dramatic. I'll regale everyone with tales of it, and they'll be all, "OMGNOWAI." And I'll say, "Totes."

LOLZ I swear, I almost told Mel that she shouldn't talk at all on Christmas eve or Christmas cos her voice makes Baby Jesus cry.

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I know. I look at her post, and the MsScribes and the Limeybeans, and I'm so confused. What makes people do this? No, no - what makes people let themselves do this?

Hah, rehad would be the best thing for her, probably. She's on something.

[teot.livejournal.com]

Eeeh! She's still lying!

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I think so. If I were her, and telling the truth, I'd have dropped off the face of the earth. Instead she tells a sob-story. I don't know, but something still seems fishy.

[allzugern.livejournal.com]

Thanks for getting that! I had her friended because I knew she would be back, then she friended me Friday, so I knew something was coming. I kept checing for 'the big post', but missed it due to Christmas celebrations. When I got on this morning the journal was deleted again. What's the point of making an apology if you delete the journal and NO ONE CAN READ IT?? *boggles a little more*

any way, Happy holidays to you :-)

[allzugern.livejournal.com]

BUT SHE IS A COMPULSIVE LIAR!!! SHE CANT HELP IT!!!

Dude, are we taking bets as to when she'll re-undelete the journal??

[strokeof-genie.livejournal.com]

I had her friended cos I was too lazy to take her off my flist. I was lucky that I caught it before I had to finish cleaning; I kept refreshing cos I wanted to see people yell at her, and then I saved it cos I knew it would be gone, eventually. I could never figure out how to take screencaps, or I'd have done that. I never understood the point of posting something you want read on the busiest day of the year, and delete it about thirty minutes later.

Happy Holidays!